Hi everyone – Lindsay and Bjork asked that this note be shared with our Pinch of Yum community here on the blog. If you’d like to follow more updates, you can follow Lindsay on her personal Instagram account here. Thanks to all of you who have already sent so many thoughts, prayers, and words of encouragement – know that it means so much to Lindsay and Bjork. ♡ – Jenna
I took this quick bump selfie in the doctor’s office yesterday literally 15 minutes before our lives came crashing in on us. I went in for a check-up, thinking I’d be home in an hour, and ended up getting admitted on the spot for having a 4cm dilation on my cervix with my water bag threatening to break through at just 23 weeks.
Bjork and I are here in the high risk neonatal unit and we will stay here with me being on strict bedrest until baby arrives, which is not supposed to be till the end of April, but with these new developments, could happen anytime. We had already chosen this hospital to deliver at, knowing it would be a great place to be in case “anything went wrong” – but you just say that stuff, right? It’s not actually supposed to happen to you. Even though we are in the best possible place for preemies, as of 12am this morning, our tiny guy is still only 23w2d old, and the baseline for viability is 25 weeks.
In other words: if I deliver within the next few days, his chances of surviving at all, much less without major lifetime health complications, are extremely low.
We are aware of the percentages and hard possibilities and grieving them. We are also SO HOPEFUL for our son’s life and boldly and confidently praying for just a little more miracle time in that belly. Every single hour feels like it makes a difference for his survival at this point. A little more lung development, a little more time for his eyes, his skin… all of it has suddenly become so critically tied to the clock. We are asking for prayers and support especially in the next critical 24-48 hours – that everything with my body would stay calm and he’d stay tucked in right here with his mommy. 💙 just you and me, right here, as long as it takes, BB.
This is not how we want to be experiencing pregnancy and birth and newborn life, and it’s jarring and hard. We’re letting go of what now seems like such a dream for a “normal” pregnancy and a “normal” baby and embracing what’s happening right here in front of us. But forward is the only way. 💪🏼 So one day, one hour, one minute at a time. We love you baby boy! Hang in there peanut.
We’ve just received text that Jenna and Greg Pearson lost their baby last evening and Jenna’s sister, Emmy Bollman told me about your blog as I need words to say to them how sorry I am.
Hi Lindsey, I realize I’m a couple years late here, but your story so resonated with me, I figured that was ok. I delivered my first baby boy at 19w6d. I had a bit of leakage earlier in the week and stopped by the hospital in the midst of errands just to be safe, only to have my water break during the exam. The months after were like being pulled into a black hole. That was 5 years ago and we’ve been blessed with 2 healthy children since then. I was diagnosed with an incompetent cervix and decided to get a trans-abdominal cerclage after my pregnancy loss. Not sure what your diagnosis was (if any – so often pregnancy loss is accompanied by the painful, frustrating lack of answers), but I hope you’ve found healing these last 2 years!
I’m sorry to hear that and you will be in my prayers. God bless you and your peanut!!
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Wishing you both strength and resilience
Sending you all prayers for your little bundle of joy. I know for sure that there is a reason why God permits what he permits. It will all work out for good.
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Just found your page today as I was looking for fun/yummy recipes. So sorry to read about the loss of your son. Prayers to you and your family during this super tough time.
Prayers to your family! <3
I am a mom who gave birth to twins at 24 weeks gestation 19 years ago. Our babies were born at 24 weeks weighing 1 lb 3 ounces and 1 lb 1 ounce. We lost our Alexandra 2 weeks after birth, on Christmas Day. Our Samantha struggled thru and is now a 19 year old girl with some issues… but about to go off to college.
I can sympathize with you. I understand the grief and guilt. There are communities online and I am sure in your area that can help.
My heart aches for what you are going thru.
I benefitted from getting calls from some of the mothers who went through this. I hope there are poeple you can reach out to. I became one of those mothers after time, so that I could help the others that were sadly in the same place in their own time in their life. I wish you strength and love of family to get u thru.
I hope that you can reach out to those who can help. My email is here so that if u need to reach out to an unbiased person who lost a child and has learned to deal with it for over 19 years. Please reach out.
There are things I could not talk about to others that were not in my shoes. So from a woman who has been in your shoes. I can help if u can not find closer help.
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Cervical incompetence is so unfair. My twins were born at 21 weeks after finding out at our anatomy scan that like you I was dilated and had bulging membranes.
If you ever want to talk about Afton, cervical incompetence or next steps when you are ready please feel free to reach out.
Just checking on everyone. I know it has been a whirlwind and a sorrowful time. Praying for Lindsey and Bjork & family.
Keeping you guys in prayer. God is with you and your baby through it all. Rest in his peace and comfort!
Prayers for you
Oh gosh, what a truly awful thing to be told. Am sending a mega ton of good thoughts your way.
Hang in there, little man!
xx
I was not expecting to find notification of the loss of your baby. I am so very sorry that you have to go through this.
Loved the fact that you shared your beautiful and sweet son with us. So very sorry for your loss!
My thoughts and prayers are with you both!
Sending you lots of healing and growing thoughts. Best of luck!
I read today’s post, and I am so, so sorry for your loss. I will be praying for you, your husband, and family to have comfort and peace that can only come from the Lord.
Praying for you and that boy.
My family is hoping everything is going okay. Praying for you three.
Sending prayers up for all 3 of you right now! Stay in there little peanut!!
I’m praying for your family and sending every good wish to you all.
I am broken-hearted for you. I can’t even imagine your pain. What you wrote on your instagram account may be the most amazing and beautiful thing I have ever read. Praying that God will bless you and comfort you as only He can.
Sending prayers for all of you!